How do we measure time? Well we have units for that. Minutes, days, weeks, years.. and the list goes on.
But how to measure happiness from four years and four months full of love, laughter and fun? We can’t. But yet we can feel it. I can feel it. And it’s more than enough to warm my heart. And eyes, too, I tell you.
Yesterday was my last day working in Female Daily Network. And even though I am quite excited to start my new role in the new company, I dreaded the day I had to say good bye to them. I knew I would have to say something during the farewell, but yet I procrastinated it as long as I could because I always shed a tear whenever I started to compose the message in my head.
And all of a sudden, the day came. I could not even describe my feeling when I woke up in the morning that day. But I was up late and I had a meeting (Yes, I still attended my last meeting on my last day) so I ran and took off. The meeting went smoothly and Affi and I went back to office, determined to get some final job done before I am really gone.
I knew the office had prepared some lunch for us all, so I have expected the gathering and the farewell. But little did I know they had prepared something else and it was very very special. I arrived to find my desk was covered in post its from the whole office. They had written the nicest, cutest, funniest, silliest little notes for me. From the ‘good luck and have fun’ kind, to the ‘please don’t fall down in front of your new clients’ or ‘do you have Rp. 10K that I can borrow?’ (long story, don’t ask :p). It felt like many little waves of memories came struck my heart. So I started crying. I have never really realized how long four years and 4 months is, until the time I reminiscing all the memories.
Female Daily Network is more than just an office for me. It was my home, my family and my baby. I might not be the one who built it. But I was there in almost every step the company made. It seemed just yesterday that the three of us spent sleepless night to prepare the presentation deck. I still remember the excitement when we finally received the first client paycheck and the nervous feeling when we received our first pitch invitation.
I came to this company, to sit in a very tiny desk next to the toilet in the back of Hanzky’s boutique, and four years later, I left my big wide desk in the corner of the 300m2 office with customized reception table and big community area.
I came to this company, with dehydrated dull skin, no makeup and bad clothing, and four years later, I left with skin condition younger than my actual age (based on the skin test I took), decent makeup skill and so much better fashion sense.
The company has only done good things to me. The fact that they have put their trust in the 27 years old kid with no publishing, digital nor sales experience to help building the company has made me much better person. I have grown my skill, I have developed better and healthier lifestyle and most important, I have found people I really love. Some of the people there have touched my heart in the way that they might have not even realized.
And as if all that is not enough, they have made this
pretty sweet video for me. I did not even expect this as I only officially told the whole office about my resignation less than a week before my leaving. But yet, despite tons of video revision I asked, my sweetest Kila stayed up until 2AM and editing this.
Someone once told me, I should not count on what people say about me to feel good about myself. I should feel good because I am good. But watching this video and see all these lovely people saying good things about me really makes me thing that I might not be too bad.
I had nothing but fun these past four years. But this is the time I have to put on my big girl pants and head to the real world. It is scary as hell. But if I could make wonderful people in wonderful company like you not firing me in the first 3 months, I am sure I could do this.
