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About Bravery

All my life, I have never considered myself as a brave person. As far as I remember, I am always scared. Not to ghosts or other supersticious things like that, but I am scared of things like meeting new people, doing new things, going to unknown places, and above all that, I am scared that people won’t like me for I am or they think that I am not good enough in what I’m doing.

Having said that, I could say that I am quite proud of myself this year. Well maybe these past 14 months or so if I want to be really precise. But I have done so many new things, accepting so many challenges that maybe two years ago would never occurred to me, and I am loving the result!

Let’s see. This year I finally able to cross three things on my so called bucket list (because I have never actually made a list, but those are the things I have always wanted)

I go back to school.

I have always wanted to pursue undergraduate degree, but things were always came my way. This year it’s finally happening! It’s not an easy thing to do, doing your MBA while working, but I am not complaining. I have so many people supporting me for taking this decision and I am gonna graduate with flying color, I swear! The school is really great, by the way, but if I’m gonna talk about it, this is gonna be a very long blog post

I slowly going back to the size I was before. And healthier than ever!

Yes, each year I told myself I’d start healthier lifestyle and I would reduce my dress size. But instead, I got bigger and bigger and not even close to healthy. And I was in constant denial, blaming it all to my PCOS problem, and thinking that it’s your personality that matters, which is very true, except that it’s hard to let your personality shines when you constantly feel nauseaus and out of breath. But this year I finally decided I’ve had enough. I went to see the obgyn to talk about this illness thoroughly. I hired a nutritionist and followed her plan religiously, and I pushed myself to exercise, harder than ever. It’s all paid off, though. I have never been fitter (and happier, really), and, like I wrote above, I am slowly going back to my non-whale size. And I am doing it the healthy way.

I breathed Europe’s air!

I don’t travel much. I can even say I very rarely travel! But whenever I dream of traveling, I always think of Europe. Last month I went to Finland for school trip and I enjoyed every second of it. What makes my heart swell with pride is that I spent a couple of days by myself in Helsinki, and I managed to last in one piece. For someone who are even scared to go eat by herself, that’s such an achievement :D

There are also some other things that I am quite proud of, like this year I managed to finish not one, but TWO races. One was Indonesia Urbanathlon and the other one was Adidas Kings of the Road 10 k race. And that I participated in Shave for Hope event and running around everywhere with clean shaved head for a couple of months (I am going back to wig now, though, because now the hair starts to grow, I look really weird)

I am not very religious. But I remember one time, there’s this Church event and the guy who gave the sermon said, in the Bible, there are 366 lines of Jesus saying  “Don’t be afraid.” I don’t know whether it’s true or not, and I am not even interested to check, but I believe it anyway, because it’s just so awesome that there’s enough line for each day of the year, Him telling us not to be afraid.

And if you don’t believe in Jesus, my most favorite author, Neil Gaiman, on each of his New Year’s letter, wishing us to be brave, to make mistakes and to surprise yourself (Read his complete awesome New Year’s journal here). And being a person who got scared about a lot of things, I can tell you that it is really a wonderful feeling. Maybe because I am not being brave often enough that it’s very special whenever I do that. But it really is awesome.

I am about to try something new again this coming year. It could be the stupidest thing I have ever done, or it could even be the best decision. I don’t know, that’s why I am trying it. And it scares the hell out of me. But I know that, whatever the outcome is, I would not regret this decision. I am gonna face this new challenge bravely, and I will work hard and have a lot of fun and at the end of the day, I know I can sleep better at night knowing that I, once again have surprised myself… and be brave.

Wash your spoon. Save the earth! – View on Path.

Wash your spoon. Save the earth! – View on Path.

It’s funny how small thing like putting on makeup can really improves the mood. At least my mood. #fashionesedaily #clozettedaily

It’s funny how small thing like putting on makeup can really improves the mood. At least my mood. #fashionesedaily #clozettedaily

What my classmate brought for my birthday. OMG she’s so nice at IPMI International Business School – View on Path.

What my classmate brought for my birthday. OMG she’s so nice at IPMI International Business School – View on Path.

History of Female Fashion – View on Path.

History of Female Fashion – View on Path.

Life of a students. We study, and drink when we’re not done with assignment :p

Life of a students. We study, and drink when we’re not done with assignment :p

Okay this will make me sound like aspiring foodie. But whatever :p

Ever since I started my #cleaneating habit, I’ve stopped adding sugar to my #coffee and opt for whole milk instead of low fat one. And it’s not only good for my body, it also makes me appreciate the taste of both coffee and milk even more. 

People might say I have a sad life for trying to limit the delicious crap I put in my body. But guess what, I am not at all suffering. And I will have my #fitnfab body while still enjoying good food :)

Okay this will make me sound like aspiring foodie. But whatever :p

Ever since I started my #cleaneating habit, I’ve stopped adding sugar to my #coffee and opt for whole milk instead of low fat one. And it’s not only good for my body, it also makes me appreciate the taste of both coffee and milk even more.

People might say I have a sad life for trying to limit the delicious crap I put in my body. But guess what, I am not at all suffering. And I will have my #fitnfab body while still enjoying good food :)

My new Percy Jackson charm necklace. I know.. Geeky. But cute nevertheless :p – View on Path.

My new Percy Jackson charm necklace. I know.. Geeky. But cute nevertheless :p – View on Path.

24-hour Rotation

I don’t make resolution. But I always try to improve. And one thing that I really need to improve is my time management.

I plan to go back to school next year, so I will have to juggle between school, work and assignments. Not to mention social life. Not that I’ll have time (or money.. lol. School is expensive… *rolls eyes*) to do it, but nevertheless, better time management is in order.

So these past two weeks I’ve been trying to response to all the emails I receive in less than 24 hours. FYI I receive around 50 emails per day. And oh boy, that is such a hard thing to do.

The company has trusted me to be the department head and I am now supervising 5 people. The thing is, they are not my assistant, they are my subordinates. Which means I have to supervise all their job while maintaining superior level of productivity myself.

So let’s get back to the email window and get busy replying email, Vanya…

Thought via Path

Belum pulang ke rumah karena mau nunggu presale Stone Roses mitnait nanti. Tapi namapun umur tak lagi muda, jam segini masih di luar bikin pengen minum teh panas.

Akhirnya mampir di 7/11 Mayestik buat mengisi logistik. Demi menghindari angin malam, memilih duduk di dalam memandang ke jalan.

Di depan jendela, persis hadap-hadapan sama gw ada Yaris putih B1435KKE. Di dalemnya ada sepasang kekasih yang lagi berasyik masyuk. Yang di bagian supir ga keliatan karena bangkunya kayaknya dimundurin senderannya. Di bagian penumpang ada cewek cantik berkacamata yang tangannya terlihat sibuk membelai-belai orang di sebelahnya.

Karena salting gw duduknya nunduk terus, seolah-olah teh panas gw sungguh menarik.

Setelah 10 menit nunduk kan pegel juga. Pas nengok ke depan lagi si cowok lagi bangun ke posisi duduk, cuma pake kaos dalem, trus ngambil kemeja dan dipake.

Trus mereka pergi meninggalkan parkiran.

Akhirnya leherku bisa lurus lagi… with richoz at 7-Eleven – Read on Path.